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i wanna use this more cuz i like the layout but my life is so boring...ive never been good at keeping journals
this had been a bad year for me though so most of it would just be negative anyway...not even because of the pandemic. i mean yeah that has definitely made it stressful but even back in january i had Two (2) hard drives corrupt on me and i lost $800~ dollars worth of music software so. That Was Fun And Cool. its been better now though because i think ive finally found some medication that helps with my ocd, i dont think ill ever be able to live normally because theres no cure for it but...its a step i guess. ill probably need more for various other things wrong with my brain but clomipramine seems to be doing well in the ocd department... its really expensive though so im glad ive made a habit of saving money. even with the goodrx coupon its still like 60~ish dollars per month which is...eek. but i guess id rather spend that money that be ultra suicidal so. its a step in the right direction i think.
in other news ive been playing animal crossing new horizons and fire emblem three houses all year and i actually feel accomplished when i play them and get stuff done so...video games are fun for me again actually?? aside from birth by sleep cuz bbs is always fun for me for some reason...birth by sleep addiction syndrome
anyway i work retail so holiday season during the Pandemic Times ought to be a real hoot. and by "real hoot" i mean more stressful than usual. but i will push through like always.............woo
this had been a bad year for me though so most of it would just be negative anyway...not even because of the pandemic. i mean yeah that has definitely made it stressful but even back in january i had Two (2) hard drives corrupt on me and i lost $800~ dollars worth of music software so. That Was Fun And Cool. its been better now though because i think ive finally found some medication that helps with my ocd, i dont think ill ever be able to live normally because theres no cure for it but...its a step i guess. ill probably need more for various other things wrong with my brain but clomipramine seems to be doing well in the ocd department... its really expensive though so im glad ive made a habit of saving money. even with the goodrx coupon its still like 60~ish dollars per month which is...eek. but i guess id rather spend that money that be ultra suicidal so. its a step in the right direction i think.
in other news ive been playing animal crossing new horizons and fire emblem three houses all year and i actually feel accomplished when i play them and get stuff done so...video games are fun for me again actually?? aside from birth by sleep cuz bbs is always fun for me for some reason...birth by sleep addiction syndrome
anyway i work retail so holiday season during the Pandemic Times ought to be a real hoot. and by "real hoot" i mean more stressful than usual. but i will push through like always.............woo
